i don't answer the phone anymore

i don't answer the phone anymore
i just lie here in the middle of the floor
don't know how long i've been here
can't remember when it was that i could see things clear

i don't head home at the end of the night
i walk around town until it starts getting light
wonder if i should call from a payphone
or forget it again, and take myself home

i don't have her stuck inside my mind
but the memories come back from time to time
and i don't always remember what went through my head
and i don't always remember the things she said

i don't answer the phone anymore
i don't respond to the knocks on my door
i tried so hard to give myself away
now i'll hold on to it until i find a way